Many yrs ago. I went into a very deep depression. To the point I didn't care if I hurt other people, and I no longer cared about my own life. It is difficult to explain that feeling, if you never experienced the feeling you probably can never understand it and if you have experienced the feeling no explanation is needed. I'm one of the lucky ones I'm still alive to tell others about it and to let them know that death, Death is a permanent solution to a temporary problem. When I was in that dark place that deep depression I did not understand that I don't think I would have believed it if someone had told me that. What I did know was that I was in pain, and that in my pain I had lashed out and unthinkingly hurt others, which brought only more pain and anguish upon myself. I wanted the pain to stop so I tried to take my own life and I almost succeeded.
I slit my throat and my wrist and lost a lot of blood. By all rights I should have died that day. But as I slipped into half consciousness that day I had a vision. Not of a bright light or a tunnel or an angle. In my vision a beautiful woman came to me. She was dressed in green and had red hair, three ravens circled above her. She placed her hand on my neck and looked down upon me with emerald green eyes. She said “I am a gatherer of souls, you have a good sole and a good heart but you have lost your way. Your are not done yet you will not die today. You must find yourself, find your path and share your path with others.”
It has taken a while for me to find myself, in fact I am still looking for parts of who and what I am. And like myself, my spiritual path has evolved over the years. Although I am now 59 yrs old I have only in the past 10 years tried to define what my path is in words that I hope at least a few others can understand. My near death was a changing point for me. And as I continue to fined and define my path I hope what I share what I believe will help others that are searching also. Help them find peace, help them find their own path.